Tuesday, January 31, 2006

OK I'M UPDATING! sheesh..


haha...
ok past few days cny.
yup.
angbaos and black jack.
won some.
wooh.


ok.
today is 31 jan.
joel's birthday.
went to his house.
with gerald-justin-shihan-minkay-stella.
there were more ppl there la.
played blackjack again.
stuffs.
went to shaw.
met up with jon.
oh and desmond too.
err.
ya.
watched fearless.
super nice. haha
k.
hmm.
went home?
lol.
k ya.
basically had lots of fun today.
there's sad tmes too.
but ya.
de day ended well. =)
ok de end. bye

me_________`e-leen *
11:46 PM

Friday, January 27, 2006



me_________`e-leen *
9:10 PM

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

ok... dotz.

finished work at 6.
went to meet ele and joel.
or rather they came to my shop to look for me.
gerald came at de last min.
went to food court to eat.
abby came.
changed our minds and went for long john.
walked around.
went to meet elder glass.
dammit. why did i tag along?
damn sad.
now he's got my no.
he's gonna pester me.
i'm sorry no offence to christians.
but why do u ALL love to MAKE ppl believe in god?
belief in god, should be gain true experience and understanding.
NOT thru advertising.
yes dats wad EACH AND EVERYONE of u christians have been doing.
advertising for god.
like. dotz hello?
if we believe in god just becuz of wad u said.
is it TRUE belief.
or just "hey-i-think-she/he-makes-sense" kinda thing?
sigh.
like i said.
no offence k.
hmm.
how come we buddhists dun go around advertising?
cuz we respect other religions.
trying to make us convert.
is DISRESPECT.
but many ppl go, " no i'm not forcing u, just come for service and u'll know"
NOPE.
NOT forcing.
zZzz.

ok.
i'm in a hurry.
dammit.
bye.


horoscope: You have a policy -- a personal rule -- about dating coworkers. You tend to avoid it. Period. There are times, however, in the life of every rule, when exceptions need to be made -- and one of those exceptions recently walked by. While you were trying to concentrate on your job, too. Well, first of all, everyone knows that rules were made to be broken. And wouldn't it be nice to have an easy conversation icebreaker on tap, once you actually sit down to lunch? Or dinner? Or drinks at your place? Sure it would.

er... there's only one guy at my workplace.. but...... NO THANKS?

me_________`e-leen *
12:02 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006

i haven been doing my horoscope for a long time.. so here it is:

Secrets are usually the easiest thing in the world for you to manage. You just decide that you won't talk about them, and that's it. They disappear from your memory. Right now, however, if they're your own secrets, they may not be quite so easy to dismiss. You need to talk them over with someone, and your confidante will be more than agreeable. Just be sure you choose someone who's worthy of that trust.

abby, i trust u k.. =)


alright.
went to work.
there was this group of guys.
de white shirt one named darren.
cuz his fren bernard told me that.
for no apparent reason
he was like, " dats darren."
i'm like, " err ok?"
dotz.
den i went toilet.
they followed me there.
and de same guy asked me about eunice.
aw.
this guy in navy blue was interested in her.
den he introduced himself as bernard.
hmm. and shake hands with me.
dotz. he was ang mo.
k anyway.
de white guy wanted my no.
and de navy blue guy wanted eunice's no.
they approached her b4.
but too bad man, she's attached.
HAHA.
k i din give cuz de guy too shy to ask.
LOL.
but he was cute.
LOL.
k ya.
oh yes at de end of de day.
we [me and my colleagues] walked to de interchange.
waited for our individual buses.
and realised we ALL haven punched in our cards.
wooh.
den just as we all walked back.
ALL our buses came.
SIAN.
lol.
yup.
went back to punch.
oh yes.
i injured myself while climbing up to get a size of shoes for a customer.
OW.
k ya.
damn.
i'm working full tmr.
have to wake up at 9.
OMTIAN.
ok. bye

me_________`e-leen *
11:50 PM



Boy meets girl
You were my dream,my world
But i was blind
You cheated on me from behind

So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it's true
I'm still in love with you


I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me


Day and night
I'm always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know it's true
I'm still in love with you


I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me




me_________`e-leen *
1:15 PM

Sunday, January 22, 2006

met abby and ele at macs.
ate BIG breakfast.
met up with joel and sh.
went tp open house.
zZzz.
gerald came meet us.
went queensway.
tiok ps by sion.
went town.
watched movie.
took neoprints.
went home.




sometimes i dont get it. i think i have split personality. me on de OUTSIDE and de INSIDE me.

OUTSIDE me --> always happy, cheerful, out-going, open, friendly, noisy, sporty, rough, stubborn at times, takes teases/insults jokingly, makes friends fast, click well with most ppl.

INSIDE me --> sensitive, cries easily, feel hurt, more quiet

de thing is.. i cant show my inside to others.
my outside self is a barrier.
its like having a split personality.
u cant be 2 at de same time.
maybe its possible.
so i'm trying.
ppl just dun know how sensitive i am.
de outside me will laugh off at teases
de inner me cried.
de outer me is too rowdy and chorlor therefore branded as ah lian or a guy
de inner me is damn sad about de way ppl brand me.
its like, de ultimate insult to a gal is to say she's a guy.
and i get dat all de time.
of cuz i know everyone's jk.
dats y de outside laugh with de joke.
but de hurt resides deep inside.


its not dat i nv tried.
i tried.
but like i said.
de outer is a barrier.
like, i can want to badly say thank you to someone.
but de hands of de OUTSIDE feels like its covering my INNER me's mouth.
i can so badly wanna lower my voice.
but my outer me seems to have just FIX dat volume.
i so wanted to be more demure.
but me on de outside just cant do it.
i dunno why.


i have so much to say.
i talked to abby over de phone just now.
for 2 and a half hrs.
and cried for dat time.
but i cant seem to phrase them out here.
i dunno how.


but i know for sure.
i'm trying to change myself.
i'm trying to let part of de INNER me come out.
its gonna be hard.
but yea.
i know i can do it.


i shall try to be more inner me.
from today onwards.


and hopefully.
by the end of this yr.
i wont have split personality anymore.
i'll be free.



maybe its like wad gerald said
my inner me is caused by how ppl treat me.
and how ppl treat me is caused by de outer me.

me_________`e-leen *
12:34 AM

Saturday, January 21, 2006

k.
met abby and josh.
played bb.
tiok pang seh.
by junwei.
and i'm pissed.
by tza.
who's godly an ass.
fine.
asked damien and hsin chang to come play bb.
was kinda sad.
i missed de old bb gang.
BUT.
tza got match. jw pang seh. bernadette replied after we left. tim and alvan cannot reach.
boohoo.
went to tm after bb.
bought toriQ =)
wai kiang so nice.
treat me again.
but i felt so bad.
haha.
abby and ele went home at 4+.
walked about aimlessly.
saw leonard and glen.
biking.
went to Times.
read books to pass time.
i miss reading.
din realised how long since i read a nice long book.
k.
dun gimme dat "omg eileen reads?" crap.
wadever.
k.
went to work at 5.45pm.
we were godly good today.
sales hit 2.8k.
woohh.
a whole 1k more den ytd. =)
thomas msged and was such an ass.
bleah.
saw wai kiang after work again.
he just finished work too.
took bus home with him.
he stayed near huan's block i think.
den saw kailing and her bf on de bus.
wai kiang walked me home.
so sweet. =)
nice guy.
but i felt bad.
1st he treated me -though i tried damn hard to refuse it-
den he sent me home.
aw.
k.
i think my sms gonna bao soon.
so ppl, dun sms me.
call me. =)
free-incoming.
k.
helped jon do his blog.
i'm damn good.
i just realised. =)
in fact i'm godly.
k not as good as steph.
but ya.
k now de time is 1.30am.
die.
tmr cannot wake up.
lol. k i'm damn slpy.
zZzz.
buaiz
-end of story-

me_________`e-leen *
1:31 AM

Friday, January 20, 2006

jerome says, "blog wad happen at work"
ok.
ytd at work.
2 big bosses came.
de bugis in charge Eric and manager of overall Jingli.
both i have their no.
hahah.
k ytd was near death.
we had to meet our daily target -2k-
and by de time i punched in at 6.
it was ... a shocking 600
like, OMTIAN.
so ya.
we had to push hard for sales.
den saw sm. -shaun's ex-
she asked me to visit her in metro next time. haha.. workin there.
last min, got this LIFE-SAVING couple,
who came and spent alot.
abt 140+
i took de opportunity
told them.. buy till 200 can get membership.
LOL. and they did.
yay.
they saved us.
we din meet de target but got 1.8k.
not DAT bad.
whew.
and jinxian started crapping stuffs like cuz he's there dats y.. -.-
typical.
hahaha
-end of story-

me_________`e-leen *
12:19 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

k... was late to meet weibin today.. woops... =x... ok sorry la.
hmm. k.. meet him at about 12.15pm.
went to eat lunch at long john.
went to bedok mrt station to meet andrea to get my MEASLY $100 pay from de childcare.
went back to tamps to cash de cheque.
met abby, huiping, dorcas
met ele.
went to popular.
bought pens to draw on shoes.
abby and de rest went to take neoprints.
den hp and dorcas went home.
ele and abby went levis.
met jerome and damien to get my money for my present.
me and weibin went to s-11 area buy my white shoes.
dem went to meet cheryl.
went to m-industrie.
bought my mickey shoes.
went home with cheryl.
-end of story- =)

me_________`e-leen *
10:57 PM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

ok... back from crash-sation.... hmm...
1st of all.. we din crash mjc... we crashed tpjc.
yupps... quite boring.. zzz.. nothing much... blah blah
yupps.
anyway... the child care center -sortof- want us back.
hahahaha..
like, common?? u asked us to leave and asked us back?
ermm... ok..
they called in de mornin... a diff branch.. "Mini World"
"excuse me, eileen?? do u mind comin back to work? cuz we need help"
pfffffffftt. hah. think i will?? sheesh.
and i got de job i wanted... hahaa... dats good for me now..
so i'm definitely not going back.
buahahaha.

me_________`e-leen *
10:03 PM



k i'm not jobless anymore... =D...
just as i was wandering aimlessly in tm ytd... thinkin abt jobs...
jing li msed, " hi.. u still interested to work in m-industries?"
wooot!! xD... rocks.. i applied for this job in decs... hhahaa...
such a coincidence they find me AFTER i was jobless..
muaahaha.. fate.
wads m-industries?
its dat mickey mouse shop in CS -century square-
yupps.. wahaha.. VINTAGE OK?!?!
hahaha...
ok... supposed to go crash mjc later..
shh... muahaha... shall update later..


guy-with-mic: "Ladies and Gentlemen, stay tuned to find out, what.... will happen to eileen.. in the last episode of.... CRASH THAT JC! "
"We'll be right back... after that commercial!"



ok... i dunno where that came from, i just have de urge to type it out.. HAHA!! =)

me_________`e-leen *
12:26 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

i'm so sad!!!! lil world childcare center said they dun need ppl liao.. den i can't work anymore.. and ele only workin half... we are both disappointed... guess we got too attached to de kids...

i'll miss issac de most!!!!!!! dunno he'll miss me not... sigh. after... he sticks to me alot...
ya.. and yuda oso... he always cry... like only i can stop him.. when i go home he always cry... zzz... but i think ele can oso...
aloysious oso... sigh.... and nigel...
oh yes... naughty darren... cheeky lil crocodile... i'll miss him...
and rita and claudia... i'll even miss leticia... sigh...

oh wells... jobless again... anyone has good lobang??? zZzz...

me_________`e-leen *
5:52 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

update!!


zzz... actually i'm lazy too... zzzz.. been busy... christmas... birthday...zzz... new year.... work.... urgh....

somemore my work is everyday one.. no rest.. omtian... so tirin.. but quite slack... luckily.... de kids so cute somemore.. and i have enough of reactions like, " WAD?!?!? YOU?!?! child care center?? u scared them one right?!?!"

fuck you.

like wad?? i scared kids? wow.

ok like.. i have to try to understand them. put up with them.. [though most were ok.. and VERY VERY cutee] and tiok bite by nigel... i have to put up with these ppl.. wow... cool........

ok wadever... de kids are so cute.. haha.. esp. rita and issac... he keeps stickin to me.. and he's only TWO!! haha... so adorable... =] and rita is such a cute gal.... oh yes.. there's de ever so cheeky darren too.. hahaha... nigel is cute too.. but he's a problem child... he dun interact... dun speak... just scream and shout... yup... and pinched ele.. and bit me... REAL hard... oww..

haha... but it's ok la.. can't blame him... zzz... de job is basically easy.. just de MORNING part... de deadly... WAKING UP... zzz.. ok... tmr working.. buaiz... nothing else to say...







just fuck off me and my job.

me_________`e-leen *
9:31 PM

.eileen.KYLE.
.7teen.
.temasek polytechnic.
.interior architecture and design.